apron strings

Yeah, So WHAT'S IT TO YOU!?!?!?!?

I did the unthinkable.  It goes against every grain in my body. 

Well, every grain except the one that will do ANYTHING to get Cate to make that deep, guttural laugh that mandates she grab her belly from laughing.* With her bitty chubby hand. 

It all started well meaning enough. We took her to Toys R Us to get her cousins a little something for Christmas.  She mainly just wandered around-she is still tickled with herself for being able to walk. Plus, she likes to ask strangers for milk-by signing 'milk' and saying "mahlk" looking at them longingly.

Then she stumbled, quite literally, onto a pink ride-on. Motorized. A tyke-sized ATV.  I helped her get on it-the batteries were out and so I pushed her on it-and as we went down the aisle-I heard it-the deep guttural laugh.  K saw it too. We both looked at each other. With the same thought- "please don't let this cost hundreds of dollars......" because we both knew we would be buying it.

I must also admit that I did literally hours of research to get the safest most durable tot-ride  made.** 

I also spent over an hour, combined, on hold, trying to find the one in town with a drink holder and compartment. Surely, you don't think Cate will go anywhere without milk and Douglas?*** 

And so it is to be. Ms. Cate, as of Christmas morning,**** will be the proud new owner of a very pink, very Barbie, very small 4 wheeler. It goes 2 mph.  

  

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* Hopefully, you've long forgotten about the dumbest post I've ever written. But should you remember-yeah, it was dumb and my foot is in my mouth. I honest-to-Gawd can't believe I wrote that. 

**If you're in the market for a motorized tot-ride and want to know what I found are important safety considerations-only buy age appropriate. Which for new walker means-button push powered, 2 mph or less, no reverse, with hill control.  You also want it close to the ground so that they can easily get off and on it.   As far as durability- Fisher Price wins every time-they have good customer support. The funny thing is-they are just as inexpensive as the others- about $80-$90.00. 

***I can't believe I haven't told you guys about Douglas. A little dog Cate grabbed onto and in F.A.O. Schwartz in Manhattan-and is seldom without. 

****Assuming of course mommy and daddy can figure out how to put it together on Christmas Eve. 

(wordless wednesday) cate's first trip to the mountains. where she *naturally* looks for bears.

 i love pumpkins.

 

do i smell a bear?

(i sure do like the leaves.)

 must quit hibernating and look for bears!!

oh you silly bear you do not fool me.

finally! i found a bear!! take a picture!

 

ahhhhhhhh! sweet peace in the arms of a bear.

wordless wednesday; the picture that could keep her from becoming ms. america

too much to say.

if you have read this blog once you will find no irony in the fact that i struggle with the "wordless" part of wordless wednesday. especially today. it's my first real day back at work. two weeks after i gave birth to a little wiggly thing that i love more than anything in my life. ever. 

i cried the whole way to work. i called k and tried to tell him that i was crying. he thought i said dying and frantically began looking for his keys. he told me that i could trust him and my MIL, which i do. wholly.

it isn't as bad as it sounds. she is napping at home with my husband and mother in law. both who are smitten and my mother in law knows more about raising children than i do. so, she is in good hands and asleep. 

my being back at work (for three hours mind you) is the only negative thing about my work life. i pan to work from home most days, k will watch here the only days that i will work. and i can always bring her in with me and even breastfeed her in my office.

she will only be with family for the first eight weeks and after that with a nanny across the street who my neighbors have adored for two years. for half a day. and i will work from home on most days. not to mention i doubt i will get paid any less. (because i will actually work and not dilly dally at work as much).(expect more typos).

overall, i am so very lucky.  in fact, i bet i could go and find twenty other mothers, in less than an hour, who'd trade places with me.

still. she was inside m for 10 months. and i love her.

it is what it is. and i need to focus on the positive. (i apologize if i sound whiny-i really do know that i am so.very lucky. in so many ways).

now that i have said my piece...here's the love of my life, our bitty poo poo canary: